Quote of the day:
There is no abstract art. You must always start with something. Afterward you can remove all traces of reality.
- Pablo Picasso
In the recent days, I kept telling myself; I shouldn’t be the person I was several years ago back in secondary school. I was always one to think with logic and nothing but pure logic. Everything I did had to be based on intuition and calculated risk. Clearly, if the risk wasn’t worth it, I wasn’t supposed to do it. This nature has also led to a big problem with pride especially when related to intelligence. To date, I still carry that trait and I’m trying to reduce it even if it means defying myself.
Ever since the ending of SPM times and the beginning of this whole AKB fandom, to an extent some may call an obsession, I’ve been trying to readjust myself to be more balanced. I don’t just want to be the smart guy and that’s the end of the line just like that. I want to carry on whatever I have, release some of this pride and be more creative, more outgoing and more visionary. I’ll add another quote from a picture I found some time earlier. We should have clear sights of our goals, but we don’t want to just stare at it and do absolutely nothing. A vision must come with an action. However, the said vision must start from something in particular. With that, one must be forever optimistic and ignore all obstacles along the way.
The AS final exams have begun for me at least a week and a half ago and so far, it’s been progressing rather well. The practical paper for chemistry wasn’t that dreadful while the physics paper was comparatively easy compared to the previous experiments we did. With relation to goals, I still don’t have a particular one in sight when it comes to my life in full. All I can say for now is that I need that perfect score from my exams. Whether that is achievable or otherwise, that is another question.
Now onto the real reason of the post. Weeks ago, probably a week or two, I’ve read of a story where a lucky boy got to literally hang out with members of AKB48 during the 「Everyday, カチューシャ」 single recording period in Guam. The boy, whose father was a loyal fan of AKB48, informed him of their arrival and decided to snag a quick look at how things went down at the set. He was a local resident himself and he was living the dream. Management took notice of him when he appeared and even gave him tasks for the girls in order to make it look as normal as possible. He had plenty of conversations with the girls and the best part was that he got to take pictures under the condition that he needed to maintain strict camera rules and regulations.
Pictures would explain this further but that paragraph above alone is enough to explain how much I want that to happen in my own life. This isn’t the only event that’s compelled me to write this post. I may be crazy or obsessed or whatever, but I had a number of dreams that were related to some of the members themselves. There’s no point into explaining how the dream went considering it was totally nonsensical and impossible to occur in this world we live in. Some say that people who appear in your dreams could be people from the past or the future. I’ll never know if that is true or otherwise but maybe it’s an indication?
Now, some information on the ’48 groups themselves. AKB48′s sister group, NMB48, has recently started a big chain of releases starting a couple of weeks ago when the AS exams have just started. While NMB’s and AKB’s singles have been released, SKE’s latest single is next in line, followed by a couple of subunit tracks. Thus far, I have added 3 new songs into my CD and readjusted a couple of tracks, bringing the total number of tracks to 34. That’s as much as I have for now.
A very important event of AKB48 is about to take soon, namely the AKB48 Request Hour Setlist Best 100 for 2012. News indicate that the event will no longer be held at Shibuya-AX, but rather at the larger Tokyo Dome City Hall, reported to be able to seat 3,100 people instead of AX’s 1,500-person capacity. The upcoming concert will span over 4 days as usual but have newer restrictions which limit the set list to strictly singles and stages only. All subunits and solo tracks will be performed in a separate event sometime later. The event will be held from 19th to the 22nd of January. I don’t know what the odds are of me attending that event live, but I certainly hope there’s that chance. If at all that fails, maybe I’ll have to resolve to downloading from scratch and who knows how long it would take for them to upload the entire thing.
To have a dream, a goal, or a vision means to have something set in mind. With that, a plan must be formed, carried out, and set in stone. With all that aside, I still have the intention to meet Maeda Atsuko in person one day. There are currently way too many limiters that I myself cannot identify. At this point, I’m really lost of words. I’ll put it this way; you want to do something but there are so many things that prohibit you from doing such things. Maybe some time in the future, I’ll get to meet her even if it is just for a couple of minutes, or even seconds. All I have to do is to remain continuously optimistic and hope for the best. Until then, I have to work my way to that stage. I just know, somehow, I’ll be able to do it someday.
